I think she’s preparing me too. At 17 ½ years, she has lived with me longer than anyone else, including my parents and siblings.
I do energetic healings on her regularly. When she was a kitten, her energy often requested healing on a past life. Five lifetimes ago, Cairo was a tabby belonging to a man who tortured her. I haven’t seen much of that life, but it involved a garage and pain and helplessness. She was afraid of my garage for the first few years, especially when I came out of the garage carrying a load of wood up the stairs. She’d growl and attack me. I realized that it was a trigger… so I learned to talk all the way up the stairs reassuring her that there was no danger. In previous lifetimes she also died twice in fires, trying to bite her way out. She’s a biter, and she’s afraid of the woodstove.
In a healing a few weeks ago, her energy asked for the contract between her and that cruel man from 5 lives ago be broken. A contract between 2 souls is an agreement to explore certain themes throughout many lifetimes.
For example, my husband and I explored the theme of power and powerlessness throughout many lifetimes. In one life, I was his mother and had unlimited power for some years. In another, he was my servant. In our current lifetime, he was encouraged by his environment to beat me, but he never did. (Read The Word Not Spoken to learn more of this marriage that took place in Turkey between a Kurdish Freedom Fighter and a Canadian backpacker.) We shared many lives with one having power over the other. In a way, we explore difficult themes or experiences with souls we trust. However, I’ve had enough of repeated, sometimes ancient, obligatory experiences.
I broke that energetic or spiritual contract because I’m done. And so I’m out. Contracts are obligatory agreements between 2 souls. It takes two. Free will is supreme. I’ve ended all contracts. When a new person comes into my life, I end the contract first thing. I will explore whatever I want and these days, it is peace, harmony, love and kindness.
It is a simple and freeing thing to do. The love remains, the emotion remains, just the obligatory experiences go. Cairo, my lovely cat, was frightened to die with the possibility looming that she may have to share a home with that soul again. I would normally write his name on a piece of paper, but I wrote: “Cairo’s owner 5 lifetimes ago who hurt her” and then I said: “On behalf of Cairo, at Cairo’s request, I hereby end any and all contracts between her and her owner from 5 lives ago. This includes all contracts, all versions, all types, and all copies, all versions, all types, through all dimensions and all time: She’s out.” Then I burn the paper. “So be it and so it is.”
And that’s done. What else, my Sweet, what else do you need to be ready?
In another recent session, her energy asked me to call in all her exiled parts. Parts of ourselves leave: some are sent away, yes, but some just leave on their own. They can be called back. We can all be whole, and I choose to be whole when I die. For example, the wife part of me left when my second husband walked out the door. I remember saying: “I’ll never marry again”. Another example: many parts of me left when I was a child and learned that some behaviours would not be tolerated. I’ve had to call back Wild Me, Stubborn Me (yes, all of our parts, even those that society doesn’t approve of), Sexy Me.
So, I’ve done this with clients and friends. Hold out your arms, wide and welcoming, outside. Call your parts home, all parts, declare your love for your Self, your desire to have everyone home in your heart, no matter why they left. Stand there, arms open. Notice how your heart and body feel. Call them again. Slowly draw your arms in, your hands to your heart, gathering them and bringing them home. You might do this several times over a year, for example. Some parts are shy; some were hurt. Be trustworthy and sincere and loving. A little girl came back to me one day when I asked them all to come home. She’s still 5 years old. She was still sacred of her mom. I showed her around my house. “It’s safe here. She only comes here if I invite her. She lives a long way away. I’m adult and I’m in control and I love you very much.” I took her around the rooms. “What do you recognize? Anything? I know…. come and see…. Look, our doll, Trixie is still here. Remember her blue dress? Let’s put it on her. We missed you. Thank you for coming back.”
So, Cairo’s parts have been called home. I don’t know who all came back, but sometimes we work on “return of exiled parts” in an energy healing. (We usually work on “pain” or “arthritis.”)
This past week, I asked what to work on and her energy asked for “preparation for death”. I agreed and immediately a strong loving presence appeared on my left side, between Cairo and I. I looked to check who it was, expecting a wild cat. Lion archetype and lynx have come in the past to support her. To my surprise, it was a human. A human who has crossed over. She communicated to me that Cairo will cross over into her arms. She’s often been her owner, always loving and she hangs out with us these days, supporting Cairo and waiting for the crossing.
That reassured me. I love that Cairo will be received by that big pile of love. (I’ve also been shown my dad, finishing a marathon, pulling up near to the finish line where a crowd waits for him, cheering, waiting, loving. He’ll be fine.)
Cairo’s energy answered some questions for me. She will die peacefully, maybe in her sleep, naturally without the need of euthanasia. She’ll be 18. She’s content with the burial place I’ve chosen and has no preference for it to be ashes or a body that I place there.
I’m a healer and many clients asked over the years, “Oh is your cat a healer too? How does she help you?”
I laugh, “Oh no, she’s here to be healed and heard.” She’s a young soul (only 43 lives) with lots to learn. She’s been aggressive – disabled my right hand for one – and the love of my life. No one else has tolerated me for so long, and I have tolerated no one else for this long.
One time, she said to me: “Thanks for playing with me.” We had elaborate games involving hiding and playing catch and jumping sky high when she was younger. Another time she said, “Stop moving my toys.”
Her energy often thanks me for the healing received in this life. I answer, “Thank you for loving me every day. Every single day for almost 18 years. It has been healing for me too, my Boo-be-do.”
P.S. You can also end your contracts with ‘poverty’, ‘abandonment’, ‘illness’ etc. when you suspect that a particular theme is repeating in your life.
